Today is Monday, April 10, 2006.
Ok, so today I was suppose to go out to the DMV place and pick up a Driver's Manual 2006 for myself and for my bro, and possibly try to look for a job as well, which I did, and how did it went?
Please read on to find out.
I call this "Operation Thunder-Bird"!
Why did I give it this title? Because the sky in Portland Oregon are usually dark most of the time and there's an old story about a giant bird called Thunder Bird that sometime comes out during those type of weather and attack cute little people who's walking on the bottom, and I'm pretty cute and little so it might attack me.
Or not, but whatever, I thought the name is cool so Operation Thunder-bird it is, eventhough Thunder-Bird was said to exist somewhere else, ah well.
Reason for my Journey:
All of my life I've been depending on others, but I dont want to do that anymore. I have reach a certain age where I want to do the opposite, I want to help out those that help me instead of just letting them helping me.
I am a grown up now and no longer a kid anymore, I cannot continue to sit and let my parents and brother/sister do everything for me. I have to stand up and play out my role, not just as a family member but my duty as a real man. I am my family hope, I need to look for a job, work my hardest, save up, help pay off for the house, help pay for electricity bill, buy what I want to buy and buy gift for others who once gave to me. I need to live and contribute myself as an individual should. I need to support my parents, my friends, my family and myself. But another important factor, I need to support the woman I love. I will work hard and do as much as I can to support her by buying her cd/dvds etc, all stuff related to her. Not just because I'm a big fan of hers but because I really do love her. Even if she dont know me and dont know I exist, I'll still do my best to support her and hope she can continue to live a good life. Although I do wish to meet her in person someday, to have an autograph would be nice, I'll do all I can and work my way through. From here on my journey to reach that goal begins.
What Happen Today?
Today my journey began and as expected the sky was somewhat dark, though it wasn't rainy or windy there's still plenty of dark cloud, it pretty much covered the entire sky. What's cool is that the sun was actually shinning, but only onto me, wherever I went today the sun kept shinning over me while dark cloud covered everybody else.
It was kinda weird in a way, but enough with that i'll just get on with the journey itself. Let's see, from my house to the DMV place it was pretty far but it's all good. I kept walking with the flow and then on my way there I saw an old homeless guy who was cripple and ask for some donation, all I had with me was a dollar, so I gave it to him and he said "May god be with you." And thus I continue on with my journey carrying with me a broken umbrella, it wasn't even my umbrella, it was my brother but I borrow it anyways because I couldn't find mine. While walking further I had no clue where I was going and thought that I was lost for a bit there. I'm not so sure where the DMV place is at now, but my feet kept walking forward so i'll just let it take me where it wants and turn when it wants, I hope it can lead me to the right place. And guess what? It did! I found the sign saying "DMV"! up ahead, and then I hurried in, but then I notice that the parking-lot was empty, there was no one, then I saw the message on the main door saying, "This Office is NOT open today." That's strange how it usually does open on monday except this monday, oh well, I wasn't mad so it's all good. Nothing I can do but to turn around and go back home, which I did. However, on my way back as I was trying to cross the street, a green car stop by infront of me, the driver then said, "Hey, this is for you man." Now isn't that weird? Some stranger with a blond spiky hair and blue eyes who I dont even know is offering me money, yes it was weird indeed. I ask the guy how is it for me? And he said, "God just wants me to give it to you because you have a good heart." Ok...So I have a good heart, but how did the guy know? Exactly, and so I ask him what makes him think so? and he said, "I saw you back there donating and helping out the old man earlier down the street, while everybody with car just drove off, you actually stop by and help him so that tells me you have a warm heart and god wants me to give this money to you." Hmm...I see, so he saw what I did and wanted to thank me for being cool I guess. Well I did not accept the money, I told him that what I did was all I could do to help out someone in need, I ask for nothing in return. And then the guy said, "You see? With that kind of heart, it's why I believe you deserve this reward from god." Again I did not take the money, the guy then said, "Do you believe in God?" And I said, sure, and he said, "Take this money, you deserve it." And I said, "No thank you, if you believe in god then you would believe in fate, so if it's fate, we'll meet again someday, and when that time comes, perhaps then I can accept your offering." And so he said, "Alright," and drove off...I just continue on with my journey, while the sun still shines bright above me, I could not see how much cash the guy was offering because it was rolled up, it might just be a buck or 100 bucks, but either way, I did not gain anything nor lose anything, knowing it's price still wont change my view and value over it. I choose to help out the old homeless guy on my own and ask for nothing in return. So it's all good, I have no regret, my journey was not a waste, though the DMV place wasn't open I consider this trip an experience in the outside world.
Here's a lesson I learn today, If you do something good, dont expect anything good to happen in return, just appreciate the rest of your day and know that you did something good. Be proud of yourself, in time perhaps something good will happen to you, and when that time comes it'll be worth more than the goods that you did. And if nothing happens at all, just know that you've live a meaningful life even if it's full of bad luck. For example, on my way to the DMV place I did something good by helping out the homeless person, whether he is a fake or a scammer it does not matter to me, it's not about what he do or will do, it's about what I do and wish to do. Though I did good by helping him, what did I get in return? The DMV place closed down on me. Was I mad? Absolutely not, this is the beauty of life, your being tested everyday whether you believe in god or not. Perhaps it's just not my time to get a driver licence yet? I got nothing from the DMV place but on my way back home I met a guy who offer me money, so all in all my short journey was full of test. The choices now is to take the money or not, should I or should I not accept? I did not accept, because reason is, he could just be another test from god, trying to see what type of person I am. What makes me think this? Because I did not see the amount of cash he's offering, therefore I concluded that he wanted to test me out to see if I would ask "How much is that?" To see if I will take it or not base on the amount of cash that he's offering or if I would expect "goods" in return by doing good. But I believe he found out that I expect nothing. The money that he hold was just rolled up for whatever other purpose, he might just be a scammer/faker or thief that stole the money and wanted to give it to me so he can frame me perhaps? Sometimes I wonder if he had the money to give the giver why not just give that money to the homeless instead of me? Maybe he did, or maybe he didn't, was it because he's god and he knows the homeless is a fake or something and knows what I did was kind-hearted at it's best? I dont know. The many possibility, and like I said, my mind is always open to all the possibility. Whether he's god taking a human form to test me out or whether he's the devil himself trying to tempt me, whether i'd be called a fool for not accepting free cash, or whether he's just a regular guy that just felt nice about what I did and wanted to give me the goods in return, I learn a valuable lesson today, life is nice either way.
And so on my way home I stop by wal-mart and check out if they still hired people, ofcourse the lady at the cash registration told me they do, just go to the computer in the back alley and apply. Which I did, and once again I had no clue where I was going, but my feet takes me there anyways. And I found the application machine. I sat down and chill for awhile, and read all the requirement you need in order to be hired, which in wal-mart case there's not much requirement at all. I took the time to read it through and was gonna apply for it, but then I realize that it's best if I come back here over the weekend with my older brother and stuff, perhaps then I could get some help/feedback, mainly suggestion from someone who is more experience. And so I walked on out and go straight to Gamestop, just to check and see if they're still in need of people, which ofcourse they do, and so I ask for two application, one for me and one for my bro. Though we tried to apply for this place once already and they rejected us and said that we're not good enough, it's alright, I'd like to give it another shot. Funny thing is, the paper is just sitting here, i'll get to it later.
Well, that's my day. So far so good, no rush, there's no need to, and like the old saying goes, "Haste make waste." Or something like that.
Oh yeah, one more thing, I didn't know saying "Welcome to Wal-mart!" was a job that you can apply for. Great stuff, I guess that's mainly targeted for the handicap folks, which I respect since I'm pretty cripple myself. Alright, Anyways I'm done for today now. Peace out!
Physin's Advice of the day:
In the end though I didn't get what I wanted to get, Operation Thunder-Bird was a success in it's own way. Atleast now I know that my theory in life is somewhat proven, to struggle is to live and to live is to struggle, only then will true peace be created and true happiness is achieve. Reality may have it's limit at some point, but space itself has no limit, there's plenty of room there to fantasize, let your imagination fly free and it'll bring you back the wings of eternal happiness. As long as you are alive, you can always dream.  |